I know myself better now, after 39 years on this earth, I’m no longer a stranger to myself.
Hi Self, nice to meet you.
How well do you know yourself?
I have struggled with my emotions and knowing who the fuck I am the majority of my life. I never understood why I did the things I did or felt certain ways. I didn’t know what I wanted or needed or even narrowed down what was important to me.
After the heart-wrenching divorce of my parents at 10, then going through my confounding teens that led me into my even more perplexing 20’s which slid right into my thirties of disorientation I eventually drifted into a place of understanding and culpability. It’s been a bumpy ride.
In my earlier years, I didn’t know that sitting alone in my closet for hours on end wasn’t normal or that thinking up a new person wanting to be her was strange. (her name was Kala) Nobody told me that the constant feeling of defeat and anguish wasn’t the way everybody felt.
I also didn’t know that begging for love wasn’t something that everyone needed to do. I thought I was a difficult person to love, that it was my fault.
Learning through a shit ton of self-reflection and research that there were reasons for these feelings and the behaviour that stemmed from them (All of which could have been dealt with and healed if I had only known to try.) helped me start my journey of getting to know myself.
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