I’m sure you’ve been there at some point, feeling completely lost, in your personal or professional life. In the midst of deep dark emotions of regret and turmoil. Like you’re failing at life.
For years I was in this place, failing at life, I didn’t know where I was going or what I could possibly do to get there. I was severely depressed, unemployed, broke and alone.
One day, as I rode the elevator down on my way outside for a smoke break, I remember telling myself, “Don’t fuck this up, you have a good thing going here.” I was talking about my job. Somehow I knew I’d manage to do something to screw up the life I was living at the time. I wasn’t necessarily happy but I had a job at a financial services company working as an assistant to the managers and I thought I was doing what was appropriate or acceptable in the eyes of the world. It looked like I had my shit together.
What people couldn’t see though was that I was severely depressed, lonely, barely making enough money to eat and pay rent and I felt utterly hopeless.
Then before I could even say shit, it happened, I screwed it up. I was no longer employed. What the hell was I going to do?
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